i have a dream

memang dari dulu suka sangat buat charity works. rasa best sbb masa lapang boleh fill up dengan benda yg sentiasa mengingatkan kita tentang kehidupan. sentiasa mengajar kita erti bersyukur dengan segala nikmat yang ada. betapa susahnya kita, betapa sukarnya hidup kita, ada orang lagi susah drpd kita. ada orang berharap utk jadi macam kita. ada orang tengah berhadapan dengan sakaratul maut, meminta2 Allah bagi sedikit lagi masa, untuk bertaubat, untuk berbuat kebaikan. tapi kita masih dilimpahi dengan nikmat kelapangan, Allah terus bagi peluang untuk kejar pahala. 

jadi, dengan semangat yg berkobar2 ini, tiba2 terasa nak organize charity organization di melaka ni..mungkin secara kecil-kecilan dulu memandangkan masa pun sangat lah limited dengan hal2 study. tambah semangat lepas dengar cerita oki setiana dewi, yang bnyk buat kerja2 kebajikan. oki dan kawan2nya banyak bantu golongan2 yang disisih masyarakat, contohnya banduan, kutu2 lepak, golongan lesbian dan gay. kalau kita mesti takut kan nk berdepan dengan golongan ni? tapi oki siap bole berdakwah sampai berubah mereka ni. dengan cerita ni lah terasa sgt inspired utk buat benda yang sama.

insyaAllah, semoga Allah permudahkan hasrat ni. teringin jugak nak volunteering sambil travelling..maybe ke negara2 lain..heee :) tapi buat masa ni perlukan orang yang mempunyai minat yang sama. sapa yg agak2 berminat tu boleh la roger2. insyaAllah bermula dengan organization yg kecil kita boleh besarkan bila tenaga pekerja dah ramai.

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wake up, izyani

Alhamdulillah..Alhamdulillah..i'm still alive eventhough my blog is almost dead. and im a year older, already 23 years old..quite a big number actually T.T

it's not that i didn't want to write, it's just that i hate writing something which is purely from my brain and not from my heart. something which is more theoretical rather than practical. simply uttering some words to make u feel n look great, but in real life the opposite things happen. yes, it happened to me just recently. i've turned into a completely different person. i went to the hospital for postings, i listened to the lecturers, but nothing entered my head. i went for lectures, i sat down n looked at the lecturers, they were saying something but i just couldn't hear anything. i went back to my room, i slept and i woke up in the morning, i went to the hospital again. that happened to me everyday, and i feel useless because my life has been so unproductive.

so i stopped writing. i stopped making motivational statuses on my fb n twitter. because i can't motivate people when I'm helpless and hopeless. Until one day, somebody said this to me, 'If i can buy time from those who are wasting time, I'll definitely buy them. Because I have so much things to do n I feel like 24hours a day is not enough for me. But i just can't do that.' When I hear that, I felt like somebody just wake me up from a looooong dream. Why am I wasting my life like this? Why can't I do something good to benefit myself and other people? Why can't I work really hard for my future?

So today, i decided to reorganize everything. I cant just wake up in the morning waiting to sleep again at night. Something great needs to happen everyday. 

Allah, guide me T.T jgn Kau jadikan hidupku ini sia-sia Ya Allah.