3 golongan di fb

ada 3 golongan yang pelik di facebook..

golongan pertama

pasangan couple yg bersweet2 di fb. i love you, i love you moreee. i miss u, i miss u moreeee.

tapi bila gaduh, i remove u, u remove i. i hate u. i hate u moreeee!

erkkk?! >.<

golongan kedua

suami isteri yg suka bercerita hal rumah tangga kpd public.

contoh, 'maafkan sy sbb tak dpt bg abg zuriat sob3..' (kisah benar ye :P)

dan si suami pun komen, 'xpe jgn risau, kita tak bole putus asa..'

errrrr..duduk serumah pun cakap guna fb?

>.<

golongan ketiga

girls yg suka upload gmbar ala2 model di fb..

subhanallah..mmg cantik, lawa, bergaya.

bila org komen, 'awk ni cantik la', dia akan reply, 'eh mana ada, awak lg cantikkk..'

pastu org yg komen tu reply, 'tak la, awak lg cantikkkk'

n the same dialogue goes onnn and onnn..

erkkkk?! >.<

haha. kadang2 pecah perut baca komen2 kt fb. betapa modenisasi mengaburi mata memekakkan telinga kita. hingga kita lupa batas2 yg perlu dijaga. sehingga kadang kala kita sendiri membuka pekung di dada. bercerita hal2 yg tak perlu kita ceritakan. kadang2 cerita yg boleh menjatuhkan maruah kita sendiri..

hati2 dengan dosa yg tak kita sedari di alam maya.

peringatan kpd diri sendiri dan semua :)

di india

di india,

aku makan roti yg dah 3hari expired.

di india,

aku makan makanan tepi jalan, yg perencahnya debu dan asap.

di india,

aku makan dgn lahapnya di kedai yg dindingnya berkurap dan berkulat.

di india,

aku makan makanan yg digaul dan dilenyek dgn tangan tempe, ditambah dgn percikan peluh dan airliur.

di india,

aku makan makanan yg dibuat oleh pakcik yg pakaiannya ibarat sebulan tak dicuci.

di india,

aku makan makanan yg dalamnya ada rambut, semut dan KEPALA LIPAS.

di india,

segalanya mungkin.

tapi, makanan india mmg sedap2.

lol

mari merepek lepas exam!

baru habis exam block 3, so i choose to have something jotted down here :)

cepatnya masa berlalu, rasa mcm baru smlm jejakkan kaki ke india, tup2 dah hampir 2tahun rupanya. tinggal lebih kurg 8bulan lg untuk tinggalkan bumi india. insyaAllah, kalau lepas 2nd year.amiinnnn~

pertama kali datang sini, semangat mmg berkobar2 nk belajar. nk grad dgn cemerlang, nak jadi doctor yg bukan sekadar cukup2 makan. hari ni, tak sangka hampir separuh perjalanan utk jadi doktor dah berjaya ditempuh. tinggal separuh lagi. dan semoga semangat ini akan terus kekal, tak berhenti di tengah jalan. insyaAllah..

biasa la tu kdg naik kdg turun. kalau selalu di atas pun tak boleh jugak kan, mudah nak lupa diri. jadi kdg2 Allah ingtkan dengan dugaan dan cabaran yg kembalikan kita ke asal usul, fitrah manusia. yg lemah, yg tak mampu nk berdiri dgn sendiri tanpa pertolongan dariNya. Alhamdulillah, walaupun di waktu menerima ujian tu kita rasa tak mampu nak hadapi, as time goes by, kita akan realise, yang setiap yg berlaku ada sesuatu yg Allah nk tunjukkan. yg penting, sentiasa bersangka baik :)

so exam kali ni, buat pertama kalinya kena perform clinical skills depan lecturer. antara skill2 yg diajar, mcm mana nk withdraw blood, lumbar puncture, nk cucuk patients, urinary catheterization, wound suture n bla3. rasa best plak bila belajar benda2 cmni, baru rasa mcm medic student. dari asyik hafal hafal hafal dan hafal benda2 yg ada dlm buku yg tebal berinci2. hihi. lepas ni dah boleh cucuk orang, jahit luka org, tapi dlm semua skills tu, i realized there's something i tend to forget. ANTISEPTIC!

haish selalu kena marah ngn lecturer sbb tak letak antiseptic before injection. lecturer tu cakap 'u'll be the first person to cause death of the patient'. grrrr nauzubillah~ :|

but yeah, practice makes perfect kan?hope to do much better next time la kan. hehe :)

as usual, i lose my few kg during exam time. menghafal smpai tak ingat nk makan.

walhal tak perform pun T.T

i hate u microbes. i hate u kumans.

but...i love gulab jamun.

n this is the gulab jamun that i've been talking about again n again these few days. hihi

im soooo in love with it :D

the changing perception..

today, i am 21 years old.

21 years ago, i was born n i grew up with a mindset that i have to become a successful person in the future. n since i was young, i told myself that the real definition for success is getting good marks in examination. not just good marks, getting first place in class is always my ultimate aim.

i cried whenever i scored B marks, n i went nuts when i scored C for the 1st time when i was in form 4. n chemistry was the culprit.

i joined debate team, public speaking, choral speaking. whenever i lost, i felt like smashing my head n cried endlessly.

that was the old me. i had everything i wanted, i received whatever i wished. i struggled, do whatever i can, not to let myself down.

today, i guess my perception had been altered. being in med school, im getting tired with the bulks of things to learn. sooo much that i feel like if i choose top be on top, i'll be there but my life would be miserable. being a grown-up person, i prefer to see the world in a larger scale. not just books. because books cant tell everything unless we go through the situations by ourselves.

we can memorize 1000 drug names, but what with that 1000 names if we cant even remember our friends' full names right?

its true, finding an identity is never easy. choosing a path that we think the best is way harder.

trying to be a good student, at the same time getting into a sociable life. thinking about being a good muslimah, a wife, a mother, and of course a more than average doctor, i see a very challenging way ahead.

but yes, i always have Him to be with me throughout this tough journey.

courage, strength, are all i need for now..

and today, HEAVEN seems to be the most appropriate thing to be aimed.

ouch. i feel very old.