be grateful..

i really feel like writing, but i dont know from where, n how should i start. because im very very very sad T.T

right now i really, really feel like, every second counts. every moment in our lives should really be cherish, before it's too late. walk when we still have legs to move; eat, talk, laugh all d way we want when d tongue, lips n mouth are still there to accompany us; say to our mum n dad how much they meant to us, n how glad we are to have them in our lives, when time still permits us. we have no idea how much time is left for us. so appreciate whatever we have now.

i did a big sin to my tear gland again, sorry dear i just can't help it. when it comes to a matter of feelings, i always lose. this time i lost another one litre of tears to help me endure wif other people's feelings, being tested wif unbearable tests, i should say. some people call it as cruelty, but when they have to face the test themselves, the cruelty makes them realize that Allah has different ways to show His love to us. n His promises are always true, that He will never test His servant beyond his capabilities n strength to face the tests. so for those selected people, it is something to be proud of. at least it shows that they are d strongest people of all.

i went through some blogs last night, those recommended by my friends. from one blog, to the other, and then another. n that means more n more tears are dropping. i started blaming myself for not putting an effort to google n follow any of these blogs before. n now, the moment i found all the blogs, the owner is nowhere to be found in this world.

'we never know how strong we are until the only choice left for us is to be strong'

how beautiful the words are sorted into a sentence. one of the bloggers said this, n it feels like he's saying it right to my face, seriously. these blogs are about people battling wif cancer. it's very common to hear that cancer or metastasis is a very forbidding killer, n it's killing more n more people each day. but we never know, how it kills, until they are there in our body. silently, slowly, deeply, brutally invading each n every cell in the human body. n it's terrific to know that when u are enjoying every second of your life, parts of your body are yelling, screaming, asking for help. it is even more dreadful to wake up in the morning, knowing that time is running out, n today might be d final day.

'u only have 3months left to survive'

the 'death sentence' told by the doctor is like telling the patient u can either wait for your death to come or go hang urself somewhere because either way, you are going to die very soon. but these amazing people, they decided to live till the very end, even much longer than expected. until the tumor bulged out from the stomach, or blocked the airways till they couldn't breathe, let Allah decides how the endings would be. T.T ..Ya Allah, i wish i could be as strong as they are.

enough said, read these, onebreastbouncing n masafzal (click on the links), u'll understand how i'm feeling right now. it's a horror-struck-kind of feeling which wouldn't let me sleep even for a while. not because im scared of being chased by d dead people, but because i really feel like doing everything i want right now, as there are no promises that i would stay healthy n alive tomorrow. these moving, flexing limbs, blinking eyes, smiling lips, i'm glad i have them all. Alhamdulillah..thank you Allah.

it makes me realize that after all, we are just a living machine, trying our best to make our lives as beautiful n meaningful as we can. when the power button is off, everything is over, it's time to return to our Creator. wif the time left for us, lets us together find the right path to walk on. Ya Allah, show us some guidance. To Allah we belong, and to Allah we shall return.

-Al-Fatihah-

p/s : they are still many blogs i would like to share, but for the time being these two would be enough to fill your pail up wif tears, i guess.

kecomelan melampaui batas..

farah shazna, anda bertanggungjawab mengheret saya ke kancah mengadap utube berejam2 semata2 nk tgk aksi budak kecik ni..haha :P

this is soooo irresistible..comel sangat sampai buat apa2 pun teringat budak ni. eh2 mcm orang angau plak :P

kepada yg sukakan budak kecik, think twice b4 watching this.

because you're not gonna end here, but end up google-ing n youtube-ing diz budak kecik for hours or even days. i mean, this is serious ok?

yang tak suka budak kecik, CAUTIONS! these videos might turn u, into a totally different person..

heee ladies n gentleman, here i present you, DR. NINA!

ENJOY! :)

A frog was jumping in you stomach!!



Papa, papa daisukiiiiii~~~

heeee comel melampau kaaaaan?

:)

mak si nina ni orang jepun, ayah dia orang putih, las2 dia jadi caca marba, kejap cakap jepun kejap ckp omputeh.

tapi, COMEL. super duper hyper COMEL.

Ya Allah, semoga dikurniakan anak yang secomel dan selicik ni suatu hari nnt..amiiin :)

mr teeth pulak.. :)

hari ni hari bersama gigi :D

gigi sehat badan sehat otak cerdasss :)

bila dah smpai india ni baru faham betapa pentingnya regular checkup n consultation gigi.

kat msia benda ni tak diberi penekanan sgt.

tapi org india walaupun susah diorg faham how important it is to take a good care of our teeth.

penuh dental department tu dengan pakcik2 ngn makcik2 kt sini..

at least setaun skali kena checkup ye kawan2. lg baik kalau 6bulan sekali.

dental department kt manipal ni sgt besaaaaaaaaaar. bayangkan ada beratus2 dentist dlm satu department tu. bila pegi checkup mmg satu2 gigi diorg check.

ada lubang sebesar kuman pun diorg letak simen. takut nnt lg besar katanya.

paling penting everything is freeeee! :D

Alhamdulillah, masa pegi check td dokter kata gigi suma ok.

d only thing is i have severe bleeding gum when brushing my teeth, because my gums are swollen.

dokter tu kata org msia bnyk msalah swollen gums, sebab mkn non-vegetarian food. so infection sgt lah common.

so esok terpaksa pegi professional cleaning utk kurangkan msalah swollen gums ni. sekurang2nya sejam tak bole tutup mulut sbb dokter tu memproses satu persatu gigi. brrrr~

tiba2 teringat zaman sekolah rendah dulu, ada klinik bergerak dtg cabut gigi students. mcm2 ragam time tu, taknak pegi sekolah la, buat2 sakit la..

fobia sungguh dengan kad yg warna hijau tu, sbb penah sekali dulu 4batang gigi geraham kena cabut serentak..sakit kooooot~ T.T

dah la dentist2 yg datang kasar bukan maen wat keje. tarik gigi mcm tarik paku dari kayu. kita yang takut dgn dokter time tu senyap ja, walaupun sakit tahan jugak..huhu

bila pikir balik memang bole gelak sorg2. selekehnya bila darah melekat2 kt bju skolah. pastu masuk kelas sambung blaja dengan kapas penuh darah kt gigi. kesiannyaaa kat budak2 sekolah kan. naseb da lepas zaman tu..heeee :)

sayangilah gigi anda, sbb gigi yang baik tak dpt dicari ganti :)

sekian.

*tgh cuti 3hari so mmg blogging all out..teheheee :D

Mr brain..

Daripada Amirul Mukminin Abi Hafs ibn Khattab r.a katanya:

Aku telah mendengar Rasulullah S.A.W bersabda: “Tiap-tiap amal harus disertai dengan niat. Balasan bagi setiap amal manusia, ialah pahala bagi apa yang diniatkannya. Maka barangsiapa (niat) hijrahnya kerana Allah dan RasulNya, baginya pahala hijrah kerana Allah dan RasulNya. Dan barangsiapa (niat) hijrahnya kerana dunia yang hendak diperolehinya atau kerana perempuan yang hendak dikahwininya, maka (pahala) hijrahnya sesuai dengan niatnya, untuk apa dia hijrah.

- Riwayat Bukhari dan Muslim -

***

dari awal lagi islam dah ajar, betapa pentingnya niat sebagai initiator kepada apa yang akan kita lakukan, dan sebagai guide ke arah mana pembawakan diri kita. dlm medic, tak wujud istilah niat atau nawaitu yang diajar. itulah agenda sistem pembelajaran moden, agama dan ilmu dipisah2kan. tapi segala mechanism yang diajar membuktikan yang apa yang islam ajar tak pernah salah, atau bercanggah dengan kejadian manusia.

tapi kali ni bukan nak cakap pasal sistem pembelajaran, tapi sesuatu yang kita panggil MINDSET. betapa besarnya influence mindset dalam kehidupan kita.

sebagai contoh, bila kita cakap 'malam ni aku nak study' dan kita betul2 ikhlas dan nekad nak study, kita akan terdorong untuk study malam tu. tapi kalau kita ckp, 'malam ni nak tido la, kalau terjaga bangun la study, kalau tak jaga pun its ok', maka konfeeeem kita takkan bgn malam tu. melainkan kalau nk terr terr jela kan. hehe

nak bangun solat subuh pun sama jugak. kalau kita pesan kt diri sniri sebelum tido, 'aku akan bangun subuh', insyaAllah dengan sendirinya kita akan terjaga waktu subuh esoknya. tapi kalau kita tido berniatkan 'esok aku nak bangun lambat la hoooraaay!', maka akan berlakulah fenomena yg kita panggil subuh gajah atau lebih parah lg subuh dinosour iaitu solat subuh dekat2 nk masuk waktu zohor.

den perasan tak, bila sesuatu benda tu kita buat hari2, dengan automatiknya bnda tu akan jd rutin dalam hidup kita. contohnya, kalau kita biasa bgn pagi awal, hari2 kita bangun awal. sbb tu la rutin hidup kita. sama jugak dengan tabiat pemakanan, kalau hari2 kita makan nasik, pelik rasanya kalau tak makan nasik dlm sehari. kan?

satu lagi fenomena, sesuatu yang kita katakan PERCEPTION. bila kita kata 'i hate biochem! i hate biochem infiniiiiity! nama chemicals pelik2 nak hafal pun tergulung2 lidah', kesannya sampai bila2 kita takkan suka biochem, dan sampai bila2 kita takkan dapat ingat reaction tu. kalau ingat pun tak lama, lepas exam suma hilang. tapi kalau kita kata 'aku sukaaaa biochem. indahnya reaction2 ni, indahnya nama2 chemicals ni' maka secara tak langsung kita mendorong diri kita menghayati apa yang ada dalam biochem. dan perasaan suka dan cintakan biochem tu akan bertambah2.

itulah kehebatan sumting we called it as BRAIN. bukan the pinky n the brain, tapi HUMAN BRAIN. dan menunjukkan betapa hebatnya sang Maha Pencipta.

jadi setiap niat yang kita pasangkan dalam hati kita, memberi impak yang sangat besar kpd otak. otak sebagai 'saya yang menurut perintah', tak kisah la perintah yang baik atau yang buruk, dan akal sebagai pemerintah.

semuanya bergantung kepada kita, sama ada kita yang nk control our brain, atau kita nak biarkan our brain yang control kita. mcm mana otak nk control manusia? bila mana manusia bg satu arahan, contohnya aku memang pemalas, sampai bila2 pun aku pemalas. jadi otak pun akan laksanakan tugas dia untuk jadikan kita seorang yang pemalas. selagi kita tak ubah arahan tu, selagi tu la otak akan buat kerja dia sampaikan lama2 otak sendiri dah terbiasa dengan arahan tu. susah bila arahan tu nak diubah. maka jadilah kita sorg yang pemalas.

so kawan2, ayuh jadi pemerintah yang baik kepada otak kita. jangan cemarkan organ yang sangat hebat ni dengan benda yang bukan2. NIAT atu MINDSET sangat penting dlm setiap perkara yang kita lakukan. TAPI bukan sekadar niat, niat kerana Allah Taala. renung2kan, selamat beramal~ :)

WE ARE WHAT WE THINK WE ARE..

snow..

rasa macam nak nanges bila bukak fb. bnyaaaak betol snow kt fb. as if fb pun dah masuk winter. malangnya dekat india tade tompok2 putih, ada tompok2 hijau je (taik lembu ye kawan2 :P)

bila la kt india nk turun snow..turun la turun la plisss~ T.T

masa mula2 sampai sini dulu, dean dah cakap, kalau kt europe ada 4seasons, kt india lagi hebat, ada 6seasons..

HOT, HOTTER, HOTTEST!

WET, WETTER, WETTEST!

haa tudiaa..tak payah nk beli winter coat tebal2 bulu2, beli rain coat suda... :D

sekarang ni bole dikatakan season hotter la, baru habes season wettest. wettest betol la sampai bangunan2 kt india ni suma naik fungus, mushroom, segala2 jenis kulat. even kat ceiling bilik pun hijoo je. WOW bole buat spirullina! ;) so habis ja musim hujan, diorg kena cuci pastu cat balik bangunan2. ksian pakcik2 tuu..hmm

takpela, di mana bumi dipijak di situ langit dijunjung. terimalah india seadanya :))

walaupun kat sini tade snow, tapi kat sini ada oto, ada bnyaaaaaaaaaaak lembu, ada bas yang laju pusing2 macam roller coster (tapi bau ikan masin la :P) ..den ada kawan2 yang bes!

Alhamdulillah, i have everything here, except for my beloved family. n SNOW! tapi jangan risau, skype, fb dengan ym setia membantu. dpt tengok family n snow kot laptop pun jadiiilaaahh.. :D

insyaAllah ada rezeki nnt dapat la pegi europe jalan2 main snow. time pegi hokkaido dulu tak sempat pun nak main snow, mak angkat suruh dok rumah diam2 je :'(

TAPI insyaAllah, cuti bulan 2 ni nak jalan2 pegi north india. kat sana ada snow weeeee :D lepas main snow balik msia, double weeeee :D

p/s : saya mmg suka balik msia, tiket india-msia tak smpai rm400 pun pegi balik, triple weeeee :D

lagi p/s : esok ada class test anat tapi saya tak baca apa2 lg..

weee weee weee :|

model2 raincoat india :))

till then, from india wif love.. :))

MODE : bollywood, I LOVE INDIA